I have composed a piece of written musings on the tools choice in clay sculpting which I put on a display on a public internet forum.
I have received following advice: Go seek therapy.
However upon checking my vaults it has become apparent that they are barren.
What should I do in this situation?
I wouldn’t say it’s essential, more one option out of a whole bunch you could use to improve yourself (though we pay for many essential things like housing, water, food… Welcome to life as we know it).
Therapy isn’t going to “fix” anything. It’s a way of helping you reflect on yourself, see where your problems are, give you some perspective and start to see things differently. It can help you understand why you have certain behaviours and traits and work on unpicking them or unlearning them. But like I said, lots of other things can help you get there too, like meeting new people and having good chats, taking drugs that change your perspective, travelling, reading books. All of the above combined.
Shit I know exactly what are my problems, like I probably have all the extensive library of browser bookmarks on mental health relating to my stuff.
The main main problem is inability to cope with some trans related things
I won’t come out to the world in a sorry state I am in
Well that’s a really good starting place :) If you did want to try therapy, being able to go in saying “I have these issues and I need to learn how to cope them” then you’ve got something to work on.
It would be helpful to find a therapist who is a specialist in trans issues, and hopefully they can help you work through what you’re struggling with. They can help you reflect on why you feel a certain way, or why certain things make you feel uncomfortable or how to cope with everyday things you have to face from other people. Sorry if I’m making any assumptions about what you need, but hopefully you get the gist of what I’m saying.
Yeah I guess but why not just burn them all to the ground instead? That’s doubly tempting. They will have to get therapy to adjust to a world with me after I am finished. Why not go this way instead?
Why do I need to go instead of them? I want to traumatise them
I am not a fucking victim here, they are the victims
I swear one funny look one more time and I am going to beat the shit out of someone, cameras or not something will break and I won’t control myself anymore. Seriously I am really close all it will take is just one stare